Thoughts...they are powerful

Well, something just caught my mind lately when I read about "We must choose our thoughts". I'm just sharing what I think, and you're free to drop any comments below alright. Ever wondered how frustrating can things be? How we would be so depressed at times? How can a bitter incident affects the way we feel and act?

That sums it up by going through the following sequence. Thoughts ---> Feelings ---> Actions. If we think of depressing things, we get depressed. When we are depressed, our non-verbal actions will show them all via facial expressions or the way we respond differently. Why don't u reflect upon yourself on times like;

1. You would stone while thinking of what you could do to solve that relationship problem
2. Feel sad when you were thinking about how bad the exam went...and that you just kept quiet in a discussion when everyone else is busy chatting
3. Burst out in tears when you were reminded of things that got so bitter few years back

It's difficult on how we can control our thoughts. There's gotta be something we could do that distracts us from thinking of such things. Yeap there is. But it works differently for everyone. My case is I would work out, jog, hardcore gaming (not anymore), or just hang out with a couple of good friends for a great conversation. Else, maybe I'll just wonder around in the shopping mall checking out latest fashion trends and etc. You've gotta find yours too.

Control your thoughts cause they are capable of making/breaking you. Think positively and you'll act in a positive way. Think that you can do it, and eventually you'll pull through with your willpower. The key word would be "Self control". Food for thought :)

Weather or Climate

Ever wondered what's the difference between weather and climate? Well, weather covers only a small location e.g state where else climate covers a huge area/region e.g part of Australia's continent. For our case now, I personally think that it has something to do with the weather...hopefully. If it's climate change, most of us are gonna suffer especially the elders. Well, for more info on Global Warming, I do suggest you to read this. It's worth the knowledge and information you get :)

http://science.howstuffworks.com/global-warming.htm

There's something you can do as a human being living in this earth. Let us do our part by

1. Try not to on the air-cond too often. Aircond = Use of energy. Power plant = Need to burn more fossils to generate more energy = More heat released into the atmosphere = Green house effect = Global warming.
   
2. Stop open burning. I'm seeing some of my neighbors burning rubbish/dried leaves. It's already so hot so please do not worsen the situation
3. Recycle. Whatever you can recycle, recycle la. For more info... ask Kevin Chee XD

Else... Kita tunggu mati je lah... :(

Gaming life - How it ended

It's been years since I played computer games. They were my 'best mates' most of the time especially during primary - high school. I would rush back home just to complete my campaign or to day dream about how I could come up with a strategy which would allow me to pass this level. So how long have I been playing? Let's say about 9 years? One of the earliest games I played was:

The 1st Red Alert game

Diablo I

When it comes to online gaming, Ragnarok Online was my very 1st MMORPG that I enjoyed most. Malaysia's server (Iris) was the main server hosting players across Malaysia. There were about 1000 players during my time and back then it was free. One of my best friends introduced me to it. Allow me to explain my experience in R.O. I would -

1. Spend approximately 6 hours of gaming everyday just to level up
2. Play both servers (Iris & Sakray) for the fun of it
   
3. Sneak out to the cybercafe at 12.00am - 6am in the morning
4. Sacrifice sleep so I could train my character & hunt for items
   
5. Throw RM9.00 for 3 hours of gaming in Cafes like Inferno/Global Net - SS15
   

When R.O started charging its players with prepaid cards, I moved on to other alternative computer games such as Red Alert, Hercules, Seven Kingdoms or my PS1 games like Final Fantasy 9, Crash Team Racing, Twisted Metal, Digimon World and etc... Health was affected, studies were pretty screwed up & I could not concentrate in class. Couldn't care less since I was an addict without notice...

Final Fantasy IX - Zidane Tribal

In high school, I was still gaming. It was another era where I would game because I love the companionship + addiction. Games such as DotA, Warcraft & Counter Strike were still the hottest in year 2003. When it comes to DotA, BlueServer was the best game hosting server of all times. Just download the client and you're ready to play with your friends online. My 1st char was Drow Ranger, followed by Bone Clinx. I was still an addict, spending approximately 8 hours on Blue Server just to get rid of my noobness. "**** you! You wait la, I'll pawn you in 3 months time" lolz.

Thinking that R.O would be the end of my MMORPG, private servers from around the world have already developed their very own private servers. That's when I started R.O all over again from scratch. XileRO was one of my longest server ever played since year 2003. The commitment wasn't there...and hence the not-so-strong characters of mine. The server is located in California. So if there would be any W.O.E (War of Emperium), I would wake up at 4am just to assist my guildmates.

Realized how much time I've invested in games, I decided to take charge of my life. Knowing that games would not bring me further in life. Therefore, I decided to stop them one at a time. Starting off with R.O - A server which I've configured myself for UniMAP, and slowly moving into DotA and C.S. Till now, I've successfully stopped the addiction of playing DotA and Counter Strike. Worst, the only game I play now is L4D2.

There is more to life than just gaming. What happens if I become a professional gamer? What could I achieve by having all characters of level 255? What's so great about pawning everyone on the battlefield and boasting about it? Nothing. Simply to feed my ego is something I'm not willing to sacrifice for the rest of my life. To game as a hobby is good, but to spend hours on it is so not worth the price you're gonna pay.

Reasons to stop:

• Spend more time in improving oneself
• Time waits for no man. Spend it on gaining knowledge/experience which can be put to life such as reading or experimenting.
• Have a healthy life. No addiction = Sleep early = Healthy life + love your liver
  

I am not implying that you should 100% stop gaming because it brings no life benefits to you. What I'm trying to say is that you shouldn't spend so much time on it/become an addict.

Signs of addiction:

1. Taking your food to your computer & multitask
2. Ignore help needed by others. "I'm gaming...later dude!"
   
3. The moment you wake up, 1st thing 1st - Game!
4. As you sleep, you think about strategy, ways, solution for your characters
5. Playing after 2am. You should be sleeping else lethargic following day
6. You asked your parents to 'tapao' food for you while you're busy playing

Some might think that "Owh I have a passion for gaming. I love it, and who cares? I enjoy doing things I love most". If gaming is all that you dream of in life, then so be it. You have your say. You determine the way you wanna live your life...no one else does. Ask yourself one question. What is your testimonial to your grandchildren/friends in years to come by? End of the day, I suggest that we gamers should be a healthy gamer. Know your limits, balance time between friends and virtual ones, and most important of all...family. The clock is ticking...

I am what I am?

I never believe in what the world quotes "I am what I am". So, allow me to state what the world thinks. I am what I am, and will always be who I am made to be. In life, I want people to accept me for who I am. It doesn't really mattes how he/she is feeling towards me. Why would I change? Change for the sake of mankind so I'll be accepted? Or allow people to accept me for who I am without changing? I don't get it. If you don't like me, then just get out of my life. I'm like that! And who are u to care about my attitude and actions. I have mine and you have yours. Take it or leave it. Mind your own business...

As you can see, some people have the wrong perception of 'change' when it comes to attitude. They view change as drastic one rather than the little improvements that could mean a lot to the people around them. Is it so hard for you to do something with a little more consideration? Is it so hard for you to leave yourself behind a little while and think about others? You are what you want to be!

What I have to say:
I am the kind of person who always search for improvements in life. If I could do something that could put a smile on someone's face...I would. If I could leave behind my selfishness for a little while, I would. If someone would to tell me that I did something wrong, you will have my thanks a thousand times. Till now, I've been living up to my words. I can't stand people who are static. People who wants to be accepted for who they are. Yes, I accept u for who u are. But, that does not mean that you can do whatever you like without a slight conscience in you. "I'm like that! There's no ******* **** you can do about it!". See...total ignorance...

If you think that I am the only one that is having this problem with you, then you can always ask your closest friend around. I don't judge people, I judge actions. I did my part as a friend by telling you what's wrong with it. The rest is up to you. Decisions are either one of these two;

1. Accept it as another improvement that needs to be done in your life. Result - Self-explanatory.
2. Kick it all the way to the curb. Result - You will never improve and stay static. Friends around you will continue to ignore you and your actions since they are unacceptable. Your new friends will cont to suffer the end results of your actions in the long run just as how your close companions did. You will end up in tears as a result of loneliness.
   

Review of my resolutions

Achieved:

• - Maintained pointer for first class honors
• - Endured the obstacles & challenges in UniMAP for 3 years
• - Getting to know more people. PPMS was one of it
• - Gain new experiences. Setting up R.O Server for UniMAP KKF
• - Less FFK people ahha.
• - Acne from my face

Failed:

• - To read the bible and have quiet time for myself
• - Relationship. An attempt to build the second one ended up in a failure.
• - To spend more time with family
• - Help people when they needed it
• - Words that is not put into action. Happened in a few events.

Things that I've learned:

1. Set a standard for yourself and stick to it with a strong resolve
2. Once the battle begins, finish it. Never leave it hanging or unfinished
   
3. Parents are important at all times. They mold you for who u are today
   
4. Long distance relationship is something not many are willing to sacrifice
5. Fighting for love will not bring you any further when you've already know the outcome
6. Finding someone in your life is a natural process
7. Always believe in God and have faith in your prayers
8. Forcing yourself out of a situation you're stuck into leads to a better ending
9. Love is so powerful that it blinds your judgment at times. Get rational when you're deeply in love. Twice the pride, double the fall.
10. Beware of the tongue, for it may bless or curse depending on how it is used.
11. Be a man of word. Don't make promises you can't keep
12. Don't do things for the sake of someone else. Example. If you wanna build up, then build up for yrself and not for anyone else. If not, you are portraying an image which is a lie~
13. Being kiasu once a while helps one to achieve something that is once thought impossible
14. Don't always replace your friend's time with your partner. Maintain balance in both is difficult, but it brings the best outcome. You'll know what I meant.
15. Be yourself. Change for the better little by little and not drastically.
16. Appreciate the things around you. Once gone, you'll realise how important it is...
    
17. Love yourself. Gotta love yrself first before loving others.
    
18. Physical appearance is important. If your not attracted to each other, no amount of money, love, caring, intelligence, or respect will change that and will eventually lead to heartbreak.

Mindset

Well well, I've been getting this mindset that when I started working, it's the end of my party life. I can imagine how my life is going to be in like 5 years time? Sitting in the office, doing office work 5 1/2 days a week. 8 hours a day from 9am - 5pm. Worst if I had to do O.T. But looks like I have to stop thinking that way. There's always this happy hour thing remember? After a tiring day full of work, let's drink! Haha. But heck no. Imagine throwing like RM30 a week for booze. Rosak liver bodoh. There's always room for mamak sessions at night. But I need to get at least 6 hours of sleep everyday to escape from being lethargic. Tahan!!

Choy Hung & I in Silva

Uni friends in Republic

The recommended drinks from Republic

Beside my office?

Fashion & Attitude

When it comes to fashion, what comes into your mind? Dress up with the latest fashion trends in town? Dress to kill? Or should I say...dress according to what type of personality you wanna portray? Oh well, there are many ways to express and define fashion. As for me, I'm the type of person who dresses up based on my personality and character. I search for comfort too when it comes to dressing up. But, I'm pretty sure some of you would 'sacrifice' by wearing outfits that makes you look good in it. For all the girls out there, we guys appreciates your effort! :)

However, there are times when people dress up pretty well, but fail in other major aspects. Example: Personality & Attitude. I'm not saying that you shouldn't bother dressing up well when you have character. What I'm trying to imply is that if you're dressing up to that standard, your personality should match that standard. Example: A dresses so well that everyone looks at her suffers from the WOW effect. However, A is messy like shyte that he/she does not bother about anything else except looks. Piled up dirty clothes, not cleaning the dishes after meals and etc. Being judgemental by treating people differently based on how they look. Hey! Being good looking does not mean you have the upper hand to judge others just because their appearance are not as good as yours

You have what it takes to be there. It's sad to see that people 'win' by their first impression but fail so badly when their attitude has been revealed. Don't you think you're a hypocrite by doing so? Walk the talk! Wouldn't it be better if you actually synchronize both in attitude & fashion when bringing yourself around? Well well, the world is round. No one's perfect but there's always something you can do about it to make the world a better place right.

Always remember that Appearance = temporary. Attitude = carry to your grave. I'm not perfect either and so are you. Have a friend that is similiar to this situation? Tell him/her about it. At the end of the day, the choices we make are what we are today. Therefore, fashion + attitude = respect. Just food for thought. No offence alright :)

Politics & Education

Politics, they're never ending. Everyday, there's havoc in the Dewan Rakyat. Goodness gracious, can anything get any better? And for our dear DUN's and Parlimen's, why the hell is there so much power craze, every1 wants to be a leader, every1 wants to voice out their opinions first, nobody wants to take turns and discuss together. Just look at our condition now. We're in an economic crisis and yet there's still people thinking of themselves. This refers to our leaders in Malaysia. Ever since Barisan lost half of their seats to the Opposition, they keep on coming back by causing even more problems. Look, a lost is a lost. Just a little change in the way of doing things will not make things worst alright. Barisan & Pakatan, the best solution for the nation & the people is mainly putting yourselves together in solving the nation's main crisis and NOT for your OWN SAKE. "Owh dammit, I lost my seat, I'm gonna do something to get in back!", "Ohh Pakatan wants to take our powers, we shall regain our leadership in this country, go die Pakatan", "Hmmp, dun care about the nation 1st, we must fight for our rights to gain back trust from the nation!!!", "Hell Barisan national for being such a great LEADER with so much bribery". Will all these words...help the people out there? The answer is no...

When it comes to Education, it's pretty okay right now. There's not much problem in the Malaysian education system. It's just the attitude of the teachers. Yup! So, in order for the students to excel in their examination, teachers have to change their mindset. Emphasis on the student's understanding and not on memorizing. Simply because, memorizing is just like a volatile information in a RAM. It can only be stored for an amount of time, and once lost, is lost. When u memorize and tend to forget, what happens? BLANK! I'm sure some of you have experienced that before right?? In contrast to understanding, it helps students in any situation. Same concept but diff question, able to understand and you'll be able to solve it. The sentence " Dun care la, memorize la, not gonna use also after exam LOLZ" must not be a practice.... When it comes to language, ENGLISH is the BEST and will be the BEST forever so don't bother changing it, AS SIMPLE AS THAT!